As her mother I want her to know what it means to be your own best friend, to be comfortable in your skin, to love yourself with a sober judgement that knows your infinite value and endless worth.
I want her to know now all these truths that I am only just discovering for myself.
But as parent I am painfully aware, as I watch my children grow, that in some ways they are just mini reflections of myself. A mirror reflecting back to me all the beauty and the flaws of my own emotional landscape. What a discovery to see myself reflected back to me in their words and emotions. Foolishly I think that I am so adept at covering up my shortcomings but the truth is that I cannot give what I do not have.
So I am personally working on that which I want for her: to be a friend to myself, to be comfortable in my own skin, to emotionally connect with the truth of my infinite value in a God who loves me.
I am doing this because when she sees herself in a reflection, I want her to see herself smiling back.
It has been a crazy week of commitments and catching up and letting go. My Picture Inspiration prompt this week was to capture a reflection. (Fun for me since I'm a bit geeky about reflections like I am about leading lines.) Bean and I hunted for one this afternoon and we found it in our backdoor window. Just please ignore the dirt. :) I thought about reflecting on the meaning of the smudged reflections but then realized that I was too tired to do so and then it would all be rambling. Like I said, it's been a long week but I wanted to get my weekly assignment up. Off to bed!
4 comments:
way to go making it to the final on pioneer woman!!! Well done!
this is such a beautiful, heartfelt post. i can relate to your feelings about wanting my children to know truths i am just discovering. sometimes i wish i could keep them from experiencing the pain and challenges i've had to go through but i can't so i often wonder how to equip them best to handle whatever comes their way.
i adore these photos of her. she is beautiful.
I often say that having a daughter is one of the best gifts God has given me b/c it's forced me to love myself for the woman He has made me. I struggle with this almost daily.
I adore the second picture where her reflection is looking at you.
and these are the thoughts (hugely profound thoughts) that you arrive at when you're TIRED?!?! I think you think more clearly than I do when I'm tired. ;-)
these reflection images so very nicely complement your beautiful thoughts ...
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